Being Nan...(and lets not forget first I was a Mum)

Being a grandmother is sooo much easier than being a parent except when you have to make sure you don't cross any unspoken, invisible, indefinable Lines!!!
and one has to remember what it was like to be a new mum when you thought everyone was judging or telling you what to do...(and that is easy to remember!!)

So yes it's easier but it's also harder if you're trying to watch your 'p's and q's' all the time ...so you don't end up stepping on toes...or those invisible fine lines!!
But yes
I love being 'nan'...
One has such a different relationship with a grandchild, it's amazing how much love you can feel for someone who's 'not yours'...
And yes
I love my children so much...that's not to say I always like them but as I don't always like my self I don't expect them to like me all the time either...
They're adults now...

You love them, teach them all you can, prepare them for life in all it's complexity as best you can...and then you let them go too live and build their own life...
But it's not as simple as checking off a list and saying...yep I'm done with that....love, caring, concern, ...it just intensifies and changes from one form to another (oops you fell over ..let mummy kiss it better...to...well honey I can only tell you so much about sex and relationships and yes I'm worried too, but you gotta put the work in yourself, I can't just kiss it all better now.........)

And worry
Does one ever stop worrying about your children and their happiness....well according to my Mum (who's nearly 80yrs)...the answer is NO!!
Oh God I'm getting greyer by the minute just thinking about it all!!

But you know what...
I have two wonderful, loving children and one of those is a wonderful Mummy to her daughter and the other is a wonderful 'daddy' to his puppy dog...

How cool is that!!