Goals, dreams and Visions...

Wow what a busy time I've had lately...so much has happened and truthfully after what seems a lifetime of wondering, searching, dreaming and yes procrastinating and avoiding...my vision and goals have become crystal clear....

Mind you not as easily as it sounds, for I had to 'let go' and push aside the cobwebs of faded dreams and really go within to allow my true self  'a voice'....and then I needed to 'listen'...........

And after 'listening'...I needed to discover if my desire for this 'vision' was greater than my fear...

And not only was 'fear' an issue but the 'yammer yammer' of the critical parent within needed to be acknowledged and responded too.... (Have we not all experienced that critical parent within that favours the 'shoulds' and have to's...)...

And so begin the weeks, days and hours of 'feeling' if this Vision was truly mine....a little like putting on a brand new outfit and you're not sure if it's really you..!!....I needed to sit with it, walk with it, and see if the alignment was true and right for my authentic self....

Then there was the research to do, could it, would it... be feasible....and those baby steps were crucial...it's still early days...however just need to remind my self, ....baby steps!!

Counting down....

I can't help it I'm getting excited....just one more day and then it's the start of the weekend and it's another long weekend....yay!!!

Checklist:

• A Sleep In
• Starting a new series of graphite drawings
• Reading favourite blogs and web sites
• Did I mention a sleep in?
• Gardening
• I hope it rains with thunder and lightening 
• Some Rest and Relaxation             
• Filing notes and research away
• And I want to stay in my pj's for 1/2 a day and pretend I'm not home!
• Oh and have a sleep in...with no puppies and 3year olds in my head!

What a Week....

We know the saying about ...'the best laid plans'...well just as I was powering ahead with life and all of it's intricacies, feeling I was really moving forward, achieving some personal growth and actually on a 'high'...the happiest I'd been for ages...what happens....

Life happens....

And so I'm sucked down into that vortex of swirling emotions and past experiences, drowning in a sea of  pain and loathing.

It's all very well talking about logic and common sense, old patterns of response can  resurface without the slightest warning leaving you stuck in a place that is both a sanctuary and hell of one's own making.....

When you're in that place, sometimes you've got to just 'ride it through'....if you're fortunate enough you have or you find someone to help you come out on the other side.....at other times you just have to do it your self....

Always a little wiser, a little more indestructible and a whole lot more aware!!

Most Highly Recommended...

I really want to mention another blog which I think is fabulous...'Write Your Vision'...

Angela's blog is just amazing with such pertinent, relevant articles and questions for anyone who is interested in their personal growth and journey in life....
Easy to read...however most thought provoking...and to be honest I know I need to do some work on answering those questions that Angela asks...!

Please check this out so you too can...'write your vision!!
 (see recommended links on right hand side!)