Okay well considering how far behind I feel at this point in the year; I am naturally just delighted that it is the last day in July.... aargh!!
However I'm not being negative, just realistic. Spurred on by this recent discovery ( !! ) that I am so far behind already this year; I've decided panic is not an option!!
I am so over beating myself up for not doing and being all that I had hoped and wanted.
So I'm making a 'new' resolution. And no, it's not about limiting my expectations of my self, but rather to acknowledge what I have achieved, to respect and honour not only myself, but the journey I am on. One baby step after another.
I am who I am, no more and no less.
This past week I have achieved the majority of tasks I set my self. Probably the biggest decision I made was to change internet/broadband plans from the 12GB to 50GB for the same price!!! Now that was a fabulous achievement due to many, many hours spent researching and learning what questions to ask, what was available, etc. etc.
And I've got to tell you, the relief I felt when the decision was made (out of multiple choices) and acted on, was tangible. It felt like 30kgs was lifted off my shoulders immediately!
One more baby step, setting some personal boundaries which have required me to detach a little more emotionally from a particular situation around me. Pro-active yes, difficult to do .. yes, but necessary.
And so it is.
Saturday, July 31, 2010
Sunday, July 25, 2010
You're kidding right?
July ... the seventh month of the year.
It sucks.
I mean if I had a choice it would be around March still.
Yeah I'd be happy with that.
There would still be that sense of plenty of time left in the year to do, to be, to achieve, to dream all that one could want.
Instead;
Any day now you know they are going to start reminding us how Christmas isn't far away and to start planning for it
Not happy!
Without a shadow of a doubt, as I get older, time definitely goes faster.
I'm telling you this is not my imagination, I now get up earlier in the mornings and stay up later at night than I ever did 20 years ago and I still can't seem to get everything done that I need or want too.
It sucks.
July, the seventh month in the year.
It sucks.
I mean if I had a choice it would be around March still.
Yeah I'd be happy with that.
There would still be that sense of plenty of time left in the year to do, to be, to achieve, to dream all that one could want.
Instead;
Any day now you know they are going to start reminding us how Christmas isn't far away and to start planning for it
Not happy!
Without a shadow of a doubt, as I get older, time definitely goes faster.
I'm telling you this is not my imagination, I now get up earlier in the mornings and stay up later at night than I ever did 20 years ago and I still can't seem to get everything done that I need or want too.
It sucks.
July, the seventh month in the year.
Thursday, July 22, 2010
The big black beast...
Have I mentioned the 'big black beast' lately?
Once, only a few short months ago, there was a very cute and small puppy which No.1 son brought home.
And of course as we all know 'cute and small' tend to be just a tad playful (as the number of ripped, chewed shoes, glasses, skirts, plants etc. etc. can attest too) and then something happens.
One could say almost overnight, small becomes bigger and now I refer to her as the 'big black beast'.
No exaggeration needed when little miss 3yr old grand daughter can climb on and ride her like a pony, when the daily pick ups become like clearing a cow field, when the quantity of food consumed in a week is similar to that of an entire small nation.
No.1 son still thinks she is adorable and of course the black beast thinks and acts like she is still small, but as the one who looks after her during the days and weekends (when he's off playing), I know she may be adorable and cute; but she's still the 'big black beast' !!!
Once, only a few short months ago, there was a very cute and small puppy which No.1 son brought home.
And of course as we all know 'cute and small' tend to be just a tad playful (as the number of ripped, chewed shoes, glasses, skirts, plants etc. etc. can attest too) and then something happens.
One could say almost overnight, small becomes bigger and now I refer to her as the 'big black beast'.
No exaggeration needed when little miss 3yr old grand daughter can climb on and ride her like a pony, when the daily pick ups become like clearing a cow field, when the quantity of food consumed in a week is similar to that of an entire small nation.
No.1 son still thinks she is adorable and of course the black beast thinks and acts like she is still small, but as the one who looks after her during the days and weekends (when he's off playing), I know she may be adorable and cute; but she's still the 'big black beast' !!!
Monday, July 19, 2010
Ah the sweet joys of 'holidaying'...
One could almost say I've been on holidays.
Almost.
I've taken a leave of absence (don't you think that's a delightful way of putting it ??) from writing on my blogs
and attending to all the social media platforms.
Actually it 's been enforced really, not by choice actually.
Lets see.
There were the weeks I had the flu.
Then there was the 'little' situation regarding no internet because we'd used all our monthly allowance in less than three weeks.
And of course I got the blame for that !!
Oh and then there was the.... hmm do I start packing to find somewhere else to live or am I staying here tiny stressful dilemma...
Oh yes it's been a delightful time
Almost.
I've taken a leave of absence (don't you think that's a delightful way of putting it ??) from writing on my blogs
and attending to all the social media platforms.
Actually it 's been enforced really, not by choice actually.
Lets see.
There were the weeks I had the flu.
Then there was the 'little' situation regarding no internet because we'd used all our monthly allowance in less than three weeks.
And of course I got the blame for that !!
Oh and then there was the.... hmm do I start packing to find somewhere else to live or am I staying here tiny stressful dilemma...
Oh yes it's been a delightful time
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Oh no....it's over
Okay ...it officially sucks...The Weekend is over...
...it went so quickly that I am still trying to magically hold onto to these last couple of hours before the new week starts, and I know I write a lot about weekends on here...
It's simply that (just as it is for most people) my 'normal' week seems so full attending to what has to be done, needs to be done, and others needs and wants ............that it's taken me over 30 plus years to say that the weekend (actually it's only the Saturday) .....is MINE....
Mine to do as I choose ...
Does that sound selfish ?
Ooh I hope so!!
...it went so quickly that I am still trying to magically hold onto to these last couple of hours before the new week starts, and I know I write a lot about weekends on here...
It's simply that (just as it is for most people) my 'normal' week seems so full attending to what has to be done, needs to be done, and others needs and wants ............that it's taken me over 30 plus years to say that the weekend (actually it's only the Saturday) .....is MINE....
Mine to do as I choose ...
Does that sound selfish ?
Ooh I hope so!!
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